"Out of Season" by Ruth Curry

"Your experiences change you, your personality, your expectations, your beliefs, your desires. This is self-evident, but not at the moment when you're working late at a job you should have outgrown years ago, or crying unexpectedly in public, or listening to your ex-boyfriend say he's marrying someone else. At that moment you're just wondering what happened to the person who used to have your name and how you can be that person, how to get back that freedom, or innocence, or whatever significance that old body contained for you. She's gone for good, that girl, the girl who could give herself completely to a person or an idea, who believed she could handle anything and plunged forward into the unknown as easily and thoughtlessly as she tied her shoes."

From the book: Goodbye to All That: Writers on Loving and Leaving New York